Saturday, October 11, 2008
email...
Dear friends who have been trying to email me please try again. My email was shut down sometime between Wed. night and Thursday morning until late Friday. So please try again!! This has been a bad time to have so many important emails rejected!! :( I sent myself a test message that came through so hope it is working!! Hope you try again!!
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Princess starts piano...
Princess started piano lessons today. I can't believe she is so big already! Her teacher said she will do great she is a smarty pants just like her shirt says :)
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
funny??
So I have had so much to blog about for so long and had no time to. So now you may get sick of the posts for awhile as I catch up with a few thoughts...
You know when things get crazy but you still need to find something to laugh about...
Well in our talks about how to share our family changes so many times we have laughed and said lets say nothing and see how long it takes anyone to notice (hehe)
Although we have never taken this approach it is amusing! Especially now when receiving emails from others who want to contact S & Q directly. People who only met them a couple times and never called or wrote them before. People whom had we not told it could have taken years for them to find out.
So as I take a minute to chuckle as questions roll in from those uninvolved in our daily lives. I have to wonder how long would it have taken for them to know?? (he he)
Don't get me wrong I am so thankful they are now wanting to take a front row seat and be involved. I count that as another blessing in all this. I just hope no one forgets I have 6 kids that would love that concern not just 2. All 6 of our kids are cool !
I am in no way upset for the limited contact so many of us have, life is busy. Something we are trying to get a new pace at.
I also understand things have been tough here and many have chosen to tuck and run. All part of the human condition, run from suffering. People have known for awhile we were needing help and are now just emerging as really being concerned even shocked??
No one likes to see people hurting I get it.
Just enjoying the amusement park called life.
You know when things get crazy but you still need to find something to laugh about...
Well in our talks about how to share our family changes so many times we have laughed and said lets say nothing and see how long it takes anyone to notice (hehe)
Although we have never taken this approach it is amusing! Especially now when receiving emails from others who want to contact S & Q directly. People who only met them a couple times and never called or wrote them before. People whom had we not told it could have taken years for them to find out.
So as I take a minute to chuckle as questions roll in from those uninvolved in our daily lives. I have to wonder how long would it have taken for them to know?? (he he)
Don't get me wrong I am so thankful they are now wanting to take a front row seat and be involved. I count that as another blessing in all this. I just hope no one forgets I have 6 kids that would love that concern not just 2. All 6 of our kids are cool !
I am in no way upset for the limited contact so many of us have, life is busy. Something we are trying to get a new pace at.
I also understand things have been tough here and many have chosen to tuck and run. All part of the human condition, run from suffering. People have known for awhile we were needing help and are now just emerging as really being concerned even shocked??
No one likes to see people hurting I get it.
Just enjoying the amusement park called life.
Dad's & Grandmas
A dear friend reminded me Dad's understand what it is like to just love a child unconditionally too. This has been a long journey for the awesome Daddy in our house and I am so thankful for him!!
I also have to take this chance to thank Grandma Sue she has been such a blessing over this past weekend! I really missed my grandma, she was such a support through so much of this and she is now helping from heaven.
So Daddy's, & Grandma's too really know how to love us all!!
And grandpas........
I also have to take this chance to thank Grandma Sue she has been such a blessing over this past weekend! I really missed my grandma, she was such a support through so much of this and she is now helping from heaven.
So Daddy's, & Grandma's too really know how to love us all!!
And grandpas........
Monday, October 6, 2008
mountains and valleys
I know 2 posts in one day but bear with me....
So without the deep valleys how can you really appreciate the mountain top view? Boy I could go on about all my hardships, health issues, whatever. Life is not easy then God gives us free will on top of it! But I could also go on about all my blessings.....
Here is an example. I had some cancerous issues over 10 years ago ended up having a hysterectomy I thought it was horrible and questioned why God?? I felt destroyed... I was so thankful for my 2 beautiful children but knew I had more.
Well I never needed chemo and felt better I am happy to never know what God protected me from. Had that not happened I would never had pursued adoption to bring all my kids home and life not knowing all my children would not have the heartache and joy I now feel I would not trade it!! Not for anything... Just one example in my short humble life....
So without the deep valleys how can you really appreciate the mountain top view? Boy I could go on about all my hardships, health issues, whatever. Life is not easy then God gives us free will on top of it! But I could also go on about all my blessings.....
Here is an example. I had some cancerous issues over 10 years ago ended up having a hysterectomy I thought it was horrible and questioned why God?? I felt destroyed... I was so thankful for my 2 beautiful children but knew I had more.
Well I never needed chemo and felt better I am happy to never know what God protected me from. Had that not happened I would never had pursued adoption to bring all my kids home and life not knowing all my children would not have the heartache and joy I now feel I would not trade it!! Not for anything... Just one example in my short humble life....
Sovereignty and adoption...
I have been thinking all weekend what to name this post and where to start. I sent out an email this morning to family & friends and am so thankful for you all. It was easy to tell which ones really know us and are involved in our lives and which ones hold a back row seat with quick opinions. I have to say I do appreciate all the honest responses either way.
Our lives have been busy, crazy... You get the idea...
but the comment has come up about adoption and God's sovereignty lately.
How could God allow so many bad things to happen specifically to S and Q. I am with you; something I have thought of often myself. I am by no means an expert, but this is where I have come.
Well over the past few years I have learned to trust his sovereignty, not as a feeling, but just like love as a choice. He either is or isn't, and I believe he is.
Just as I know there is no difference between an adopted child and a bio child. As a mother of both, they are, well, just my children. The children God has chosen to bless me with. Some for a much longer time than others, but still my children.
I refuse to give into my selfish indulgence to keep any of my children from what is best for them due to what a few naysayers who have never walked my path or even been in my home dictate. Or to just keep them to myself because I can't let go.
Two of our children are mentally ill, we have gotten so much help for them and given all we have to help them. It is very humbling to realize that is not enough. So this past weekend many miracles came together to get those 2 children the help they need and deserve. Yes all my children deserve the best. And guess what, that is not always me.
S & Q have made it very obvious since they came home that they had no desire to be in the same family or home. This past weekend they were both very thankful to learn that would no longer be an issue. They will always be part of the same family (ours) & (God's) but will not have to live together any longer. This made them both very happy as they professed to never see each other again :(
So Q went to live with a family with no other children which is what she needs most and deserves. She requires so much more attention than we could offer. She is very happy with her new home and that her mom (me) will always love her and be part of her life (smile)
S has gone to a treatment home and has so many more opportunities. I am so sad to say goodbye for now, (this has been a very emotional time) but so excited at the chance they are both being given. I know as a Mom my job is to teach them right in the ways they will go and let them go. They both really are closer to 17 years old. So I am letting go.
I will still talk to them, visit, write and send treats that only Mom can send. They have not left my heart and never will.
It is a gift! Only a Mommy can understand your children are always your children. One thing I know they learned here is they will always be loved, and for that I am thankful.
I know I am not perfect and could have done many things differently, and I am sad because this is not how I wanted it to be, but also know that I wouldn't change a thing; my kids, all 6 of them, are safe, loved and receiving all the help they need whether adopted or bio, they were all born in my heart!!
I also want to share the biggest lesson learned: I will never judge another's journey; I will only have love and support to offer. Only God knows how difficult it may be and I thank you all for your grace and love.
Keep checking for pictures there will be some of all 6 of our kids along with updates.
Just because they are not living in our home doesn't change the fact they are our chldren, we will post updates and pictures like always!! (grin)
Our lives have been busy, crazy... You get the idea...
but the comment has come up about adoption and God's sovereignty lately.
How could God allow so many bad things to happen specifically to S and Q. I am with you; something I have thought of often myself. I am by no means an expert, but this is where I have come.
Well over the past few years I have learned to trust his sovereignty, not as a feeling, but just like love as a choice. He either is or isn't, and I believe he is.
Just as I know there is no difference between an adopted child and a bio child. As a mother of both, they are, well, just my children. The children God has chosen to bless me with. Some for a much longer time than others, but still my children.
I refuse to give into my selfish indulgence to keep any of my children from what is best for them due to what a few naysayers who have never walked my path or even been in my home dictate. Or to just keep them to myself because I can't let go.
Two of our children are mentally ill, we have gotten so much help for them and given all we have to help them. It is very humbling to realize that is not enough. So this past weekend many miracles came together to get those 2 children the help they need and deserve. Yes all my children deserve the best. And guess what, that is not always me.
S & Q have made it very obvious since they came home that they had no desire to be in the same family or home. This past weekend they were both very thankful to learn that would no longer be an issue. They will always be part of the same family (ours) & (God's) but will not have to live together any longer. This made them both very happy as they professed to never see each other again :(
So Q went to live with a family with no other children which is what she needs most and deserves. She requires so much more attention than we could offer. She is very happy with her new home and that her mom (me) will always love her and be part of her life (smile)
S has gone to a treatment home and has so many more opportunities. I am so sad to say goodbye for now, (this has been a very emotional time) but so excited at the chance they are both being given. I know as a Mom my job is to teach them right in the ways they will go and let them go. They both really are closer to 17 years old. So I am letting go.
I will still talk to them, visit, write and send treats that only Mom can send. They have not left my heart and never will.
It is a gift! Only a Mommy can understand your children are always your children. One thing I know they learned here is they will always be loved, and for that I am thankful.
I know I am not perfect and could have done many things differently, and I am sad because this is not how I wanted it to be, but also know that I wouldn't change a thing; my kids, all 6 of them, are safe, loved and receiving all the help they need whether adopted or bio, they were all born in my heart!!
I also want to share the biggest lesson learned: I will never judge another's journey; I will only have love and support to offer. Only God knows how difficult it may be and I thank you all for your grace and love.
Keep checking for pictures there will be some of all 6 of our kids along with updates.
Just because they are not living in our home doesn't change the fact they are our chldren, we will post updates and pictures like always!! (grin)
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